I am brimming with what I need to do, how I should go about doing it and finding the time and the gumption to do what I already do and squeeze this in as well.
For the last two weeks I have been pondering how, when, what and to whom will I appeal to get the ball rolling?
I can drive myself nuts. It is a roller coaster of highs and lows. I feel exhilarated and nauseous, excited and defeated. All before I have even tried.
No wonder I can't get things going. I am an in my head perfectionist. You would never know it to look at me, or my house. But baby - if you could see inside my head....
well...
probably you would think I am a basket case.
But that is beside the point.
I am pondering and questioning about going back to school for my masters.
If you know me - you will know that I was blessed just to get my Bachelors. It was a miracle (and a mystery - if you want to go back and look at my grades).
But I am serious. So I have been e-mailing folks. Asking questions. Talking to my principle.
and PRAYING.
I don't know how I will do it. But I want to. There are several obstacles. I have many times thought about it and pushed it away as impossible.
But....
Philippians 4:
5 Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. 6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
So I am requesting. And if it happens it will be a testimony to God.
Funny thing - if it doesn't happen - it will be the same.
Because there is always a reason.
And....
Philippians 1:6 [Full Chapter]
being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.
